Saturday, June 25, 2005

why does it have to be so hard?

so I had to ground my seven year old yesterday which means he doesn't get to be in the Fiddle Parade today. he won't get to ride the fire truck and wave and laugh with his siblings and his cousin. He was awful and he needed the wake up call but it hurt to have to take that from him.

My three year old is losing his hair. I feel and overwhelming sense of guilt over this. I don't know why it's happening. We are thinking it's because we let him get away with a very limited diet too long without vitamins (because they weren't in the limited diet.) and then last night the one vegtable I could count on him eating and enjoying, spagetti sauce, (in this house, that's a vegetable) he refused to eat. I should call a dr and get him a good physical, but I feel so guilty thinking I know what the problem is and it's my fault that I'm paralized into not making the call because I don't want to hear what a bad mother I am.

my baby keeps waking up four and five times a night. she's nine months old and fully capable of sleeping through the night. she did it for about a month. then she decided she didn't need to anymore and she needed to sleep with me. I've kicked her out of my bed because I wasn't getting any sleep and now I'm still not getting any sleep.

mommyhood is hard.

4 comments:

Holly said...

Oh, Amy, my dear!!! I hear you 100%! So, that's the reason kids lose hair, huh? I try and give Zoe vitamins, but I'm not very consistent!

And I SO feel for you about the not sleeping through the night thing! With Olivia creeping up on 11 months I am appalled that I still get up 1-2 times a night with her...and more when she doesn't feel good!

And for the record...you're not a bad mom! I promise! ;o)

April said...

Awww Amy. Mommyhood is hard. I hope you're able to get some sleep soon. You are not a bad mommy. Just one that could maybe use a hug.

Becky said...

Hang in there, Amy...((HUGS)).

Sharyn (Torm) said...

ooooooooooooh girl, i know of several kids who've lost all their hair....no clue why. one was my cousins girl....beautiful curly brown locks....it all fell out to be replaced with poker straight stuff. ?????