Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Can I "go to the mattresses" now?

Lately, I've been hearing a lot of people say about magazine publishing "it's not personal, it's business." And I can't help thinking of Kathleen Kelly's (Meg Ryan) response to that phrase: What is that supposed to mean? I am so sick of that. All that means is that it wasn't personal to you. But it was personal to me. It's *personal* to a lot of people. And what's so wrong with being personal, anyway?

my work is very personal to me. It's my words, my photos, my children, my art, so I do take rejection of them personally. I know I should just think of it not as the magazine rejecting me but as the magazine choosing someone else. I can't do that yet. I haven't seperated myself that much from the process. So I sit through another round of layout requests with an empty mailbox and I start to question my taste. I love my pages. I love the designs. So if none of them are suitible for publishing, doesn't that mean that I haven't the slightest clue what "good" means? if I take this so hard, should I even be trying?

I dont' really need an answer. I guess like Kathleen Kelly I just want to send my cosmic question out into the void. "good night, dear void."

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

To the mattresses!!!

Helena said...

I think it is much harder to get published now than it was, say, four or five years ago, since there are SO many people submitting all the time.

Anonymous said...

Amen sistah!

Anonymous said...

Amen sistah!

Anonymous said...

First off, I LOVE LOVE that movie. Just watched it on Saturday while scrapping. Always, go to the mattresses!!

Even on Munday, Tuesday, Wednesday,Thursday (Ok, I was saying it like Tom Hanks while I typed it). LOL

Steve said...

I know you didn't need a response, sweety. But to use another movie quote from Notting Hill. Will Thacker(Hugh Grant's character) "Todays (magazines) will be lining tomorrow's waste paper bins." What you are creating for our family will be a real treasure for years to come. Thank you for your dedication to preserving moments that won't happen again.

-Steve

Anonymous said...

OK... and see there... your husband rocks!

So, what I was going to say is that I totally understand. I've quit submitting for a while because I just am SO TOTALLY over the rejection. It bites. Hugs!